do u know what u want !

"what do i want in life"
Frankly i dont know and through this post i am trying to pour my thoughts on the same .

Suddenly from the past 2-3 days this phrase has started haunting me like anything ...
I never thought knowing what u want matters .But now i think not knowing where u r heading makes u vunerable , weak and moreover it doesnt takes u anywhere .i have been thinking abt this thing to such a point that whole day my head is paining .I even tried to concentrate on my options but than somehow i feel i am running from it ...Somehow i dont want to come face to face with what i want ....And beleive me writing this post go t a lot of courage from me .....Everytime someone told me to think and plan abt my future i just somehow refused to agree with the concept that ok u shud know what u want .......

I feel that all these years i have not thought cuz somewhere I doubt myself.Although my credentials have always been good and have fared reasonablly well in all spheres of my life maybe its studies or sports ..Even when my company conducted the test i was in top 3 inspite of all the doubts that i had....

And i dont know y but i have started fearing clear minded people or might be being jealous is the right word ...People who know how to fight for what they want no matter what they get or not .But the amount of satisfaction one gets in all this process is immense ..

I have realised one thing if u dont have ur goal u wont be able to stand for anything in ur life ....Right now i am having a terrible time thinking abt what i want and then devoting my heart for the thing i decide ....Dont know whether i have it in me or not but still i'll try to have a goal .

Here r someof the options that i am still thinking (u know i am software techie)

1) Go for mba ( this is what my mom wants .I think personally that this will make my life not only financially but also it will make me grow as an individual cuz ill be meeting brilliant guys ) but this thing requires my heart ...

2) stay in the project that i am working in my company and have the same life of coming checking mails and then going back and learing just enough abt to work for the project which is a maintainance project .

3) ontinuing plan 2) i can continue to learn (now the problem is what to learn java , C or c++ or the other vast ocean of languages )

4)dont do anything and be like one of the many others who dont have a goal.....


Lets c how things work and will write once i figure it out ....

Anyways i wanna thank the guy seeing whom i am really thinking that having a purpose in life is so important .....

bye

r u strong ?

How strong r u ? This is the question i have been askin myself
today ,the day when i broke off with the most special girl i
have ever met ......U know i always used to wonder y guys
behave so foolishly when they have a break up . Y they
decide to do anything for her even if it is a break off for her
good .

But now i understand that there r some girls worth all this love
and madness......And definately this girl is worth all such and
more.....

I met this girl 4 months back in my training here in
bangalore...The moment i saw her i admired her ... Though
we never had a talk in those 2-3 days i always had an
admiration for this girl ......Dont know y but always had a
strong feeling that she is my alter -ego .She is the one who at
the core is very much like me .

So finally time passed by and suddenly after 4 months we got
together for 2 weeks and this time we started talking .To
much of my amusement i felt so comfortable in her company
.She was the girl ( most unusual of all the girls i have seen)
who commanded respect and i gave her .

Sometimes i thought y some girls behave so stupidly that guys
didnt respect them but now i think it all depends upon the girl
.Anyways during those 2 weeks i felt something extraordinary
and i proposed her ....And even she accepted ....

What followed cant be described ...Whenever i used to be
with her i just admired her.she had a art to specify some of
the most complex things which i cudnt have ever thought
abt , and at those moments i just used to sit and laugh and
stare her .

Definately she is the one girl who can make u laugh , like
when she shows u a punch at u when she doesnt agrre .
Anyways all said and done ... Yesterday night we broke off
not for our personal good but for each other..Dont know i
was so strong when i was talking with her on phone yes night
but now somehow i am feeling weak .I am sure i wont be
like this for long and will recover but than the question
remains how strong i am .Whether i can really forget the girl i
want :(

Even i am not really sure that whether i really wanna forget
this girl .......

Lets c how life goes on ....

Will write whatever happens ...............

"Life is something that never goes according to ur plan "

hello

helloooooo.
Its been so long since i have visited here .Anyways now that i have finally settled here in bangalore i guess i shud be coming here more often ....

Life somehow has taken a complete turn in the last few days(definately for the good).So many things seem to have changed .....First and formost my sleeping schedule.These days i am getting up at 6.30 in the morning ...ohhh its tough specially for the first few days ....This weekend i am definaltely gonna catch up with some sleep cuz after that my technical training gonnas start and that kindof requires some nightouts....

Anyways during my first few days here at WIPRO things have been pretty easy as of now....And surely these r the days which i am gonna miss for a long time ....Actually these were the first few days of my corporate life ....

OOps have to go now cuz my time in library is over so see u all later ....
bye ...Miss u all.

moving on .....

LET LOVE LEAD THE WAY (Spice Girls)

What makes this world go round
Will the answer let her down,
She is so sweet and young,
And her life has just begun,

What does her future hold,
That's the story left unknown,
Will she make it through her days,
Let our love lead the way

Part of me laughs (oooh),
Part of me cries,
Part of me wants to question why (question why),
Why is there joy,
Why is there pain,
Why is there sunshine and the rain,
(one day) One day you're here,
Next you are gone (next you are gone),
No matter what we must go on,
Just keep the faith and let love lead the way,
Everthing will work out fine,
If you let love, love lead the way



You can be all that,
And still can be who you are,
You gotta know for sure,
That it isn't make believe,

You may feel weak but you are strong,
Don't you give up, girl

If you keep holding on,
You'll never be wrong,
Just close your eyes,
Cause it lies deep in your heart, yeah,

Part of me laughs,
Part of me cries (I cry),
Part of me wants to question why (I do, I do),
Why is there joy (yeah yeah, oh-ooh-whoa),
Why is there pain (why is it),
Why is there sunshine and the rain
(why is there sunshine and the rain),
One day you're here (you're here),
Next you are gone (are gone),
No matter what we must go on (we must),
Just keep the faith and (keep the faith),
Let love lead the way (love lead the way),

Love lead the way,
Love lead the way,
Love lead the way,
Love lead the way.


I guess most of u must have heard this song by spice girls , and if someone hasnt i wud recommend u to do so .......

Anyways so finally the time has come when i have to bid goodbye to everyone and moveon in life .......yes i am leaving for bangalore tommorow .
So my next post from wipro ...

I dont know y this time till yet i havnt got the feeling that i am going (though my mom has already started missing me ) ...i guess the reason being that maybe i feel that i am going for something good ....

I know life is gonna change for me (wish for good) but i am sure this time ill make the best of it and will try to do something really good be it my job work , be it improving myself ....So guys wish me luck .....

Cya soon...
And yeah theres one more ray of hope .....Hope so i am able to acces the comments of all those guys who i were unable to access here at my pc(specially for u Cheesy . so wait for my comment )


Bye

Miss u all...
"Part of me laughs (oooh),
Part of me cries,
Part of me wants to question why (question why),
Why is there joy,
Why is there pain,
Why is there sunshine and the rain,
(one day) One day you're here,
Next you are gone (next you are gone),
No matter what we must go on,

kids

I know this post of mine took ages to come after the previous one but then most of the time i was not at home so couldnt get to my blog ......

Anyways i got something really funny in my mail , so check it out ..U gonna love this :)

Confessions of kid

Little Bobby came into the kitchen where his mother was making dinner.

His birthday was coming up and he thought this was a good time to tell his
mother what he wanted.

"Mom, I want a bike for my birthday." Little Bobby was a bit of a
troublemaker.He had gotten into trouble at school and at home.

Bobby's mother asked him if he thought he deserved to get a bike for his birthday. Little Bobby,of course, thought he did.

Bobby's mother, wanted Bobby to reflect on his behavior over the last
year.
"Go to your room, Bobby, and think about how you have behaved this
year.

Then write a letter to God and tell him why you deserve a bike for your
birthday." Little Bobby stomped up the steps to his room and sat down
to
write God a letter.

Letter 1
Dear God,
I have been a very good boy this year and I would like a bike for my
birthday. I want a red one.
Your friend,
Bobby

Bobby knew that this wasn't true. He had not been a very good boy this
year,
so he tore up the letter and started over.

Letter 2
Dear God,
This is your friend Bobby. I have been a good boy this year and I would
like a red bike for my birthday.
Thank you.
Your friend Bobby

Bobby knew that this wasn't true either. So, he tore up the letter and
started again.

Letter 3
Dear God,
I have been an "OK "boy this year. I still would really like a bike for
my
birthday.
Bobby

Bobby knew he could not send this letter to God either. So, Bobby wrote
a
fourth letter.

Letter 4
God,
I know I haven't been a good boy this year. I am very sorry. I will be
a
good boy if you just send me a bike for my birthday. Please!
Thank you,
Bobby

Bobby knew, even if it was true, this letter was not going to get him a
bike.





Now, Bobby was very upset. He went downstairs and told his mom that he
wanted to go to church. Bobby's mother thought her plan had worked, as
Bobby looked very sad.
"Just be home in time for dinner," Bobby's mother told him.


Bobby walked down the street to the church on the corner. Little Bobby
went
into the church and up to the altar. He looked around to see if anyone
was
there. Bobby bent down and picked up a statue of the Virgin Mary. He
slipped the statue under his shirt and ran out of the church, down the
street, into the house, and up to his room. He shut the door to his
room
and sat down with a piece of paper and a pen. Bobby began to write his
letter to God.

Letter 5
God,
I'VE KIDNAPPED YOUR MAMA. IF YOU WANT TO SEE HER AGAIN,
SEND THE BIKE!

my love , my first affair

How many of us get the oppurtunity to be with the same girl we love(i mean first love)? Actually thinking about my life i realised how much i have changed during this last year .My idealogy of love has changed altogether....

Now u all must be wondering how come i suddenly remember my first affair , after all who bothers now when its as easy to get a new bf/gf as it is to get new clothes....But the reason being that yesterday i came to know from my friend that my EX girlfriend got married last month .....

And guys this was not a usual past time affair .It lasted 6 years(offcourse with lot of break ups in between)...Its not that i am upset over it cuz i always knew that this thing is gonna end this way .i was in 10th when it all started and it went till this feb when i went to Pune...I remember the moments when we didnt get tired of saying "i love u" and at that moment i really thought how important was she for me....

But now i realise that at that moment i was jut another kid being infactuated and trying all those sweet talks.ok mine affair started in 10th but now i see kids in 1st and 2nd having there gf/bf and saying i love u...

U know what i have a aunt who is a teacher and she told that she is really having trouble with one of kids in her class(2nd) who is all the time pulling up skirts of girls..Now what can u say to these kids..They r so young...

But one thing is for sure girls get out of relationships really easy....Its sad to know that the guys they love so much , dont stand any chance in there life :( I am not saying that they shud leave there family and run with us ..But the thing is that there is a way to end all this ......I have seen girls just saying that "i have been engaged and now dont call me" .Even my girlfriend was no different ..i tried calling her from Pune once or twice but she never bothered to tell me though i would have just congratulated her and moved on but still......Anyways she finally picked the phone when i came back and told me that she got engaged .And i was happy for her and a bit sad for me at that time .Cuz after all i did spent my 6 golden years with her....and i was attached to her :(

Anyways I always want her to be happy and wish her a happy married life :o)
Moreover life moves on and now i have another girlfriend and this quote goes for all the guys/gals with broken hearts

Only time or another girl can mend a broken heart

So everybody ,is anyone of u still going on with ur first love or even u have moved like me :)

wanna get naughty ;)

Haha .Guess many of u will think what the hell the title means and whether i am trying to advertise myself for all the guys and gals but i would like to tell everyone that this not a advertisement stunt but this is what i was asked by a guy or shud i say a man.....Yes u hear it right i was asked by a man ..... :)

i know this sounds funny to u , even when i told my friends about this they were like "sachi did it happen for real" and i was like yeah man it is for real.And to tell u guys this guy was no gay(at least i think so)cuz he looked married and affluent.

Actually 2 days back i was returning from my friend's place and i was crossing the lights to get an auto for my place .The time was about 8.30 pm .And suddenly someone in Octavia Scoda waved me and stopped his car ......For the first instance i thought that might be someone who knows me has stopped the car but than i knew this was not possible ..Anyways since this has happened a lot many times in univ when people stop themselves and give u a lift ..So i thought chalo i got a lift .....And heres my conversation with him ....Lets call him Mr X.

X : Do i know u .
Me : i dont think so .
X : But ur face looks familiar .Anyways whats ur name .
Me : I am Ahaan .......
X : So r u going this way Ahaan ...
Me : yes (at this point i got excited cuz finally i got a lift since at 8.30 autos
were difficult to get through..

Than he asked me what i was doing .i told him and than he told me that he was in chemical bussiness .He was in his early 40's and looked quite decent and affluent...

X : Ahaan u have good smile and u look naughty .So how many girlfriends...
Me : i told him that i have none (when i told my girlfreind abt this she said that looks like she got competition :) )

At this point i asked him to drop me cuz his place was just near by and that i cud get an auto from there but he insisted that he cud drop me a little further ....

X : So Ahaan have u ever been intimate with someone ;)
Me : No i told u i dont have a gf :)
X : No no , i am not talking abt a girl i am talking about a guy ....
Me : R u crazy , common how can i think of such a thing ..Noways ..
X : No its really very good , its more compatible u know ;)

At this moment i was really shocked and asked him to drop me.He did .....
But than the grand finalee .He finally asked me to get his number so that if ever i want to get naughty i shud call him ......

I just left ......
I was really feeling angry cuz since he was in early 40's he must have got kids who were pretty grown up and here he was asking a guy to get naughty ...Even felt sad for his wife who wud have never thought that her husband wud be like this !A despo...
I was thinking if he cud hit on a guy what abt girls he wudnt have spared the ones's in his office.....

and to end it all this happened in just 10 min .... .