complexities of life

do u know what u want !

2006-03-21T18:22:00.000+05:30

"what do i want in life"
Frankly i dont know and through this post i am trying to pour my thoughts on the same .

Suddenly from the past 2-3 days this phrase has started haunting me like anything ...
I never thought knowing what u want matters .But now i think not knowing where u r heading makes u vunerable , weak and moreover it doesnt takes u anywhere .i have been thinking abt this thing to such a point that whole day my head is paining .I even tried to concentrate on my options but than somehow i feel i am running from it ...Somehow i dont want to come face to face with what i want ....And beleive me writing this post go t a lot of courage from me .....Everytime someone told me to think and plan abt my future i just somehow refused to agree with the concept that ok u shud know what u want .......

I feel that all these years i have not thought cuz somewhere I doubt myself.Although my credentials have always been good and have fared reasonablly well in all spheres of my life maybe its studies or sports ..Even when my company conducted the test i was in top 3 inspite of all the doubts that i had....

And i dont know y but i have started fearing clear minded people or might be being jealous is the right word ...People who know how to fight for what they want no matter what they get or not .But the amount of satisfaction one gets in all this process is immense ..

I have realised one thing if u dont have ur goal u wont be able to stand for anything in ur life ....Right now i am having a terrible time thinking abt what i want and then devoting my heart for the thing i decide ....Dont know whether i have it in me or not but still i'll try to have a goal .

Here r someof the options that i am still thinking (u know i am software techie)

1) Go for mba ( this is what my mom wants .I think personally that this will make my life not only financially but also it will make me grow as an individual cuz ill be meeting brilliant guys ) but this thing requires my heart ...

2) stay in the project that i am working in my company and have the same life of coming checking mails and then going back and learing just enough abt to work for the project which is a maintainance project .

3) ontinuing plan 2) i can continue to learn (now the problem is what to learn java , C or c++ or the other vast ocean of languages )

4)dont do anything and be like one of the many others who dont have a goal.....

Lets c how things work and will write once i figure it out ....

Anyways i wanna thank the guy seeing whom i am really thinking that having a purpose in life is so important .....

bye

r u strong ?

2006-03-10T10:59:00.000+05:30

How strong r u ? This is the question i have been askin myself
today ,the day when i broke off with the most special girl i
have ever met ......U know i always used to wonder y guys
behave so foolishly when they have a break up . Y they
decide to do anything for her even if it is a break off for her
good .

But now i understand that there r some girls worth all this love
and madness......And definately this girl is worth all such and
more.....

I met this girl 4 months back in my training here in
bangalore...The moment i saw her i admired her ... Though
we never had a talk in those 2-3 days i always had an
admiration for this girl ......Dont know y but always had a
strong feeling that she is my alter -ego .She is the one who at
the core is very much like me .

So finally time passed by and suddenly after 4 months we got
together for 2 weeks and this time we started talking .To
much of my amusement i felt so comfortable in her company
.She was the girl ( most unusual of all the girls i have seen)
who commanded respect and i gave her .

Sometimes i thought y some girls behave so stupidly that guys
didnt respect them but now i think it all depends upon the girl
.Anyways during those 2 weeks i felt something extraordinary
and i proposed her ....And even she accepted ....

What followed cant be described ...Whenever i used to be
with her i just admired her.she had a art to specify some of
the most complex things which i cudnt have ever thought
abt , and at those moments i just used to sit and laugh and
stare her .

Definately she is the one girl who can make u laugh , like
when she shows u a punch at u when she doesnt agrre .
Anyways all said and done ... Yesterday night we broke off
not for our personal good but for each other..Dont know i
was so strong when i was talking with her on phone yes night
but now somehow i am feeling weak .I am sure i wont be
like this for long and will recover but than the question
remains how strong i am .Whether i can really forget the girl i
want :(

Even i am not really sure that whether i really wanna forget
this girl .......

Lets c how life goes on ....

Will write whatever happens ...............

"Life is something that never goes according to ur plan "

hello

2005-11-10T20:07:00.000+05:30

helloooooo.
Its been so long since i have visited here .Anyways now that i have finally settled here in bangalore i guess i shud be coming here more often ....

Life somehow has taken a complete turn in the last few days(definately for the good).So many things seem to have changed .....First and formost my sleeping schedule.These days i am getting up at 6.30 in the morning ...ohhh its tough specially for the first few days ....This weekend i am definaltely gonna catch up with some sleep cuz after that my technical training gonnas start and that kindof requires some nightouts....

Anyways during my first few days here at WIPRO things have been pretty easy as of now....And surely these r the days which i am gonna miss for a long time ....Actually these were the first few days of my corporate life ....

OOps have to go now cuz my time in library is over so see u all later ....
bye ...Miss u all.

moving on .....

2005-10-27T14:49:00.000+05:30

LET LOVE LEAD THE WAY (Spice Girls)

What makes this world go round
Will the answer let her down,
She is so sweet and young,
And her life has just begun,

What does her future hold,
That's the story left unknown,
Will she make it through her days,
Let our love lead the way

Part of me laughs (oooh),
Part of me cries,
Part of me wants to question why (question why),
Why is there joy,
Why is there pain,
Why is there sunshine and the rain,
(one day) One day you're here,
Next you are gone (next you are gone),
No matter what we must go on,
Just keep the faith and let love lead the way,
Everthing will work out fine,
If you let love, love lead the way

You can be all that,
And still can be who you are,
You gotta know for sure,
That it isn't make believe,

You may feel weak but you are strong,
Don't you give up, girl

If you keep holding on,
You'll never be wrong,
Just close your eyes,
Cause it lies deep in your heart, yeah,

Part of me laughs,
Part of me cries (I cry),
Part of me wants to question why (I do, I do),
Why is there joy (yeah yeah, oh-ooh-whoa),
Why is there pain (why is it),
Why is there sunshine and the rain
(why is there sunshine and the rain),
One day you're here (you're here),
Next you are gone (are gone),
No matter what we must go on (we must),
Just keep the faith and (keep the faith),
Let love lead the way (love lead the way),

Love lead the way,
Love lead the way,
Love lead the way,
Love lead the way.

I guess most of u must have heard this song by spice girls , and if someone hasnt i wud recommend u to do so .......

Anyways so finally the time has come when i have to bid goodbye to everyone and moveon in life .......yes i am leaving for bangalore tommorow .
So my next post from wipro ...

I dont know y this time till yet i havnt got the feeling that i am going (though my mom has already started missing me ) ...i guess the reason being that maybe i feel that i am going for something good ....

I know life is gonna change for me (wish for good) but i am sure this time ill make the best of it and will try to do something really good be it my job work , be it improving myself ....So guys wish me luck .....

Cya soon...
And yeah theres one more ray of hope .....Hope so i am able to acces the comments of all those guys who i were unable to access here at my pc(specially for u Cheesy . so wait for my comment )

Bye

Miss u all...
"Part of me laughs (oooh),
Part of me cries,
Part of me wants to question why (question why),
Why is there joy,
Why is there pain,
Why is there sunshine and the rain,
(one day) One day you're here,
Next you are gone (next you are gone),
No matter what we must go on,

kids

2005-10-22T16:18:00.000+05:30

I know this post of mine took ages to come after the previous one but then most of the time i was not at home so couldnt get to my blog ......

Anyways i got something really funny in my mail , so check it out ..U gonna love this :)

Confessions of kid

Little Bobby came into the kitchen where his mother was making dinner.

His birthday was coming up and he thought this was a good time to tell his
mother what he wanted.

"Mom, I want a bike for my birthday." Little Bobby was a bit of a
troublemaker.He had gotten into trouble at school and at home.

Bobby's mother asked him if he thought he deserved to get a bike for his birthday. Little Bobby,of course, thought he did.

Bobby's mother, wanted Bobby to reflect on his behavior over the last
year.
"Go to your room, Bobby, and think about how you have behaved this
year.

Then write a letter to God and tell him why you deserve a bike for your
birthday." Little Bobby stomped up the steps to his room and sat down
to
write God a letter.

Letter 1
Dear God,
I have been a very good boy this year and I would like a bike for my
birthday. I want a red one.
Your friend,
Bobby

Bobby knew that this wasn't true. He had not been a very good boy this
year,
so he tore up the letter and started over.

Letter 2
Dear God,
This is your friend Bobby. I have been a good boy this year and I would
like a red bike for my birthday.
Thank you.
Your friend Bobby

Bobby knew that this wasn't true either. So, he tore up the letter and
started again.

Letter 3
Dear God,
I have been an "OK "boy this year. I still would really like a bike for
my
birthday.
Bobby

Bobby knew he could not send this letter to God either. So, Bobby wrote
a
fourth letter.

Letter 4
God,
I know I haven't been a good boy this year. I am very sorry. I will be
a
good boy if you just send me a bike for my birthday. Please!
Thank you,
Bobby

Bobby knew, even if it was true, this letter was not going to get him a
bike.

Now, Bobby was very upset. He went downstairs and told his mom that he
wanted to go to church. Bobby's mother thought her plan had worked, as
Bobby looked very sad.
"Just be home in time for dinner," Bobby's mother told him.

Bobby walked down the street to the church on the corner. Little Bobby
went
into the church and up to the altar. He looked around to see if anyone
was
there. Bobby bent down and picked up a statue of the Virgin Mary. He
slipped the statue under his shirt and ran out of the church, down the
street, into the house, and up to his room. He shut the door to his
room
and sat down with a piece of paper and a pen. Bobby began to write his
letter to God.

Letter 5
God,
I'VE KIDNAPPED YOUR MAMA. IF YOU WANT TO SEE HER AGAIN,
SEND THE BIKE!

my love , my first affair

2005-10-05T21:49:00.000+05:30

How many of us get the oppurtunity to be with the same girl we love(i mean first love)? Actually thinking about my life i realised how much i have changed during this last year .My idealogy of love has changed altogether....

Now u all must be wondering how come i suddenly remember my first affair , after all who bothers now when its as easy to get a new bf/gf as it is to get new clothes....But the reason being that yesterday i came to know from my friend that my EX girlfriend got married last month .....

And guys this was not a usual past time affair .It lasted 6 years(offcourse with lot of break ups in between)...Its not that i am upset over it cuz i always knew that this thing is gonna end this way .i was in 10th when it all started and it went till this feb when i went to Pune...I remember the moments when we didnt get tired of saying "i love u" and at that moment i really thought how important was she for me....

But now i realise that at that moment i was jut another kid being infactuated and trying all those sweet talks.ok mine affair started in 10th but now i see kids in 1st and 2nd having there gf/bf and saying i love u...

U know what i have a aunt who is a teacher and she told that she is really having trouble with one of kids in her class(2nd) who is all the time pulling up skirts of girls..Now what can u say to these kids..They r so young...

But one thing is for sure girls get out of relationships really easy....Its sad to know that the guys they love so much , dont stand any chance in there life :( I am not saying that they shud leave there family and run with us ..But the thing is that there is a way to end all this ......I have seen girls just saying that "i have been engaged and now dont call me" .Even my girlfriend was no different ..i tried calling her from Pune once or twice but she never bothered to tell me though i would have just congratulated her and moved on but still......Anyways she finally picked the phone when i came back and told me that she got engaged .And i was happy for her and a bit sad for me at that time .Cuz after all i did spent my 6 golden years with her....and i was attached to her :(

Anyways I always want her to be happy and wish her a happy married life :o)
Moreover life moves on and now i have another girlfriend and this quote goes for all the guys/gals with broken hearts

Only time or another girl can mend a broken heart

So everybody ,is anyone of u still going on with ur first love or even u have moved like me :)

wanna get naughty ;)

2005-09-27T18:49:00.000+05:30

Haha .Guess many of u will think what the hell the title means and whether i am trying to advertise myself for all the guys and gals but i would like to tell everyone that this not a advertisement stunt but this is what i was asked by a guy or shud i say a man.....Yes u hear it right i was asked by a man ..... :)

i know this sounds funny to u , even when i told my friends about this they were like "sachi did it happen for real" and i was like yeah man it is for real.And to tell u guys this guy was no gay(at least i think so)cuz he looked married and affluent.

Actually 2 days back i was returning from my friend's place and i was crossing the lights to get an auto for my place .The time was about 8.30 pm .And suddenly someone in Octavia Scoda waved me and stopped his car ......For the first instance i thought that might be someone who knows me has stopped the car but than i knew this was not possible ..Anyways since this has happened a lot many times in univ when people stop themselves and give u a lift ..So i thought chalo i got a lift .....And heres my conversation with him ....Lets call him Mr X.

X : Do i know u .
Me : i dont think so .
X : But ur face looks familiar .Anyways whats ur name .
Me : I am Ahaan .......
X : So r u going this way Ahaan ...
Me : yes (at this point i got excited cuz finally i got a lift since at 8.30 autos
were difficult to get through..

Than he asked me what i was doing .i told him and than he told me that he was in chemical bussiness .He was in his early 40's and looked quite decent and affluent...

X : Ahaan u have good smile and u look naughty .So how many girlfriends...
Me : i told him that i have none (when i told my girlfreind abt this she said that looks like she got competition :) )

At this point i asked him to drop me cuz his place was just near by and that i cud get an auto from there but he insisted that he cud drop me a little further ....

X : So Ahaan have u ever been intimate with someone ;)
Me : No i told u i dont have a gf :)
X : No no , i am not talking abt a girl i am talking about a guy ....
Me : R u crazy , common how can i think of such a thing ..Noways ..
X : No its really very good , its more compatible u know ;)

At this moment i was really shocked and asked him to drop me.He did .....
But than the grand finalee .He finally asked me to get his number so that if ever i want to get naughty i shud call him ......

I just left ......
I was really feeling angry cuz since he was in early 40's he must have got kids who were pretty grown up and here he was asking a guy to get naughty ...Even felt sad for his wife who wud have never thought that her husband wud be like this !A despo...
I was thinking if he cud hit on a guy what abt girls he wudnt have spared the ones's in his office.....

and to end it all this happened in just 10 min .... .

wish i cud be like this .....

2005-09-20T10:20:00.000+05:30

Found this pic on a blog and thought will post here ......

when i saw the pic i dont know y i felt as if i am standing in place of the kid.i wish i cud have been there with my arms open and trying to fly ......
Have lot to say abt how i felt but just dont have words to put my feelings into ..So posting it to know how u guys feel.

quote

2005-09-16T21:17:00.000+05:30

"The pessimist complains about the direction of the wind , the optimist expects the direction to change , but the leader simply adjusts the sails !"

Read this in ims notes ..I guess i am the optimist who expects the wind to change but who is sincerley trying to be the latter one "the leader" .
So guys what do u think u r PESSIMIST , OPTIMIST or THE LEADER ?

uhhhhhhhhhhhh

2005-09-12T22:11:00.000+05:30

uhhhhh.Thank GOD i managed to log in my blog account :( .I dont know what happened but i have been trying to log into my account since last one hr but alas what i got each time was "NO DATA".In fact i was even wondering that i have forgotten my username and password(now not able to sighn in can make u feel like this).
In fact i was also not able to check the comments on my site .i tried to delete all the cookies and files but nothing helped me but than since its my pc i thought of an idea to delete history as well and see it works and now i am posting another post..
U know guys the best thing i found in company was that if some problem comes with ur pc than u just have to call the IMG guys and the problem gets solved ..cuz at my place my most of the time is spent in doing this or that to make things work ..

To start with for the past 4 months i have tried to open Pagalguy.com but the site never opened .And now for the past few days i have a problem downloading a file from rapidshare .........But than nothing is immposible and with sheer persistance anything can be achieved .So after much hardwork pagalguy is working on my pc through proxy server and yeah even i was able to download the file from rapidshare at 3 .am yesterday morning . Chalo guys hope so this post gets posted cuz dont know if my pc will come up with something new this time and stop recieving bytes .bye :))

Coming to bangalore

2005-09-12T14:34:00.000+05:30

yipee.Finally i got my location of posting.I am supposed to join Bangalore on 3rd nov.Thank GOD , i have got some sleeples nights thinking abt what if i got posted somewhere i wudnt like to go .The best thing is that i dont have to go to Chennai....and moreover banglore has always been kind of a dream city for me.I know there r a lot of things being said abt bangalore like , bad roads , dreadful traffic and stray dogs .. hehe..
I dont remember but i read somehwere abt the stray dogs ....But inspite of all this i still want to be there cuz heard that place rocks ....

I remember my first visit to bangalore in 1994 on my swimming nationals .....My family went along with me as we thought of it as vacations.The trip was great except that we rarely found any punjabi restraunts but now i have heard that things have become much better since than ......

Anyways still there r some of my friends who havnt got there joining details , GOD knows y ........... And so one of my friend called me yesterday and we got into discussion abt the best company that visited our campus ......And within minutes we came to conclusion it is gonna be Pero Systems Noida(though i am quite happy with my company ..after all how many companies provide free milk and bournvita ).

Some of the highlights of Pero systems r :-

1)To get our last semester training we had to make so many calls and emails and for our friends just one call got them training .

2)Then next came the issue of stipend during training .Though we were said no stipend there first call got them 7k ..

3)they get a card at new year from pero sytems (and hey this was before joining )

But still i like Wipro.Yeah one of the reason is that first i got placed here so definately to me its best ....

But there r some others too like i said free milk and bournvita(too me it matters a lot).During my stay in pune had alot of cups :) ...

So all the people from bangalore i am coming ......Hope so i meet great people there..By the way people from bangalore please keep me updated abt the place during these 2 months .......

!

2005-08-25T14:52:00.001+05:30

So , I am finally back on this blog after a long time ....Actually i went to noida to see my friends who work there .Moreover thought of giving a offcampus(which never happened) in noida...

This started with my friend calling me on saturday night at 8.00 that theres a offcampus going to be held at 8.00 am on sunday and that i shud pack my bags straight away and come to noida .After all the excuses i finally thought that at least ill meet my friends and moreover it wud be pleasant change from a boring schedule of just sleeping and watching tv ..... So i managed to get my resume printouts and the necessary documents and i was off by 10 pm in Tata moorie . Those of u who have travellled by this train must know that getting to stand on 1 leg in this train is lucky .Nways i spent my whole night awake.So i finally reached new delhi at 4.30 am
.There i met my friend who was coming in the same train but was in anothercompartment
So finally we took auto and managed to reach noida after being fooled by the autowala and bein dropped at a different place .

We finally reched at there place and what i saw was a house in complete mess , with clothes all over bed with little space to lie down .Not that i hav not seen this
type of thing in hostel but this thing was different . But we really got a welcome treatment there . being sunday our friends made "Pakores" , Tea and pharontas for us .Was really nice seeing those guys working so hard but it was fun ..

After having such a gala breakfast i coudnt help myself to not take a nap .After all this we finally managed to reach the company at 8.30 am . Where we waited like all others ...The pre test moments were fun with many stratagies being made that ill do this section and the rest guys will do this .We were all in all 7 guys (all from same univ).And then finally the R&G guys came at 10.30 and we all were asked to settle down in test room .After we have settled and made the required sitting arrangements there was a announcement that all freshers please leave ."yup we all were asked to leave after all the struugle we made ".That was hurting .This wasmy first encounter with offcampus stuff . Though for me it was fun but there were guys who were serioulsly looking for this job and i feel bad for them . many of them had come on such a short notice ..

After this we spent the night at another friends place with guys having beer and all
being in a mellow mood remembring those univ days .....

I guess i shud stop writing cuz this post has already become "HUGE" ...

2005-08-11T01:35:00.000+05:30

Guess this will be my one post that after all wont be concerned abt my joining ......
So whats this is about.Its the novel which i have just read "the Alchemist".Though i am a novice in reading novels ,the only one read r of "james hadley chase" and "dan brown".Anywayz i always found on net that almost everybody has got this in his must read list and now i guess how true they were .

A lot many times i wonder what is that one thing that can make me happy whatsoever ....And now i guess after reading this novel i can surely say they r good books....like this .
These books r great teachers .A phrase from Alchemist

"When u want really something the whole universe conspires with u " Alchemist
And thinking about this makes sense .How everything from the past seems the perfect fit .The ability of life to fall in right place.....

another one

"But this payment goes well beyond my generosity," the monk responded.
"Don't say that again. Life might be listening, and give you less the next time."
Alchemist

thats also true .I dont know whether thats what we call "nazar" ..

All in all mesmerizing novel ....A must read

survival

2005-08-03T21:42:00.000+05:30

Corporate world .As my graduation was coming towards an end this was the word that we all were using quite often .Phrases like "Corporate world is like this and like that" and finally when most of us went to some company or the other during our last semester training , all of us had quite a idea abt this world.

In my view the world was quite professional .The guys have a great attitude towards work .The higher the position the guy is in the more u can learn from him .The seniors and the coworker were all good and helping .Anyway this was my view and moreover we ( me and my friends in different companies) were all trainies , so might be we didnt get to see the see the entire picture .

The reason today i am putting this up on blog is because these days my friend is going through a very difficult phase in her life in "corporate world".Though she is in a totally different industry than IT but there r a lot any things that concern me .First of all to give u a slight background she is girl who is quite dynamic and profesional in her attitude and who works quite hard for her job and is really doing quite good at it , and i think here the problem begins ......
The reason she is doing good in job has infact got her a lot of enemies than friends.
I think its the whole mentality that girls should always underperform than guys and when they do perform better they get into a lot of problems..........I dont know y guys cant stand a girl performing better .Even i have seen this mentality in many colleges but still the question reamins y this .....

Ok guys and what do u think about the phrase"survival of the fittest " and where survival means u literally have to beat the other guy to survive , either through conspiracy or through sheer hard work .Though she is in markeeting field and the targets job are a lot competitive than other jobs but i think this phrase goes right .Usually she was a girl who used to fight for right or wrong and whenever something happened she used to fight it and i think till then things very pretty much fine.But recently she has started to be quite , quite to what people do .Just ignoring them .The reason being she thought that she had got enough stress and that she wont go further.But now things have gone bad for her cause since she was quite everybody got the oppurtunity to plan the way as they wanted and now she is the one who is out of race .
So now even she believes that its better to fight for her life rather than to be in e good books of everybody .

Hearing all this i seriously believe that certainly "KALYUG aa gaya hai " and its no longer those days that do good and follow the principles and ull get good.

But one thing is sure one has to fight at every stage of his/her life......

regrets

2005-07-23T16:15:00.000+05:30

There r times when u do something in life and later r left with just regrets , the times when u feel that whatever happens happen for good and the times when u just wish GOD to be on ur side .

I am also going through a phase similar like this , though had this feeling a quite many times but now things r different ......I dont know y we regret things over wich we have no control

Right now life is big suspense for me .Everyday i wake up there's somethin .A few days back when i got to know that i have to join in just 10 days i was very sad ......That time i was sad cuz i wasnt prepared to leave on such a short notice then.But somehow our joining got delayed due to lack of our last sem result......At that time we came to know that our next date will be in August .Although me and my friends were quite happy abt this but then there was other tension abt the possibilty of our joining locations getting changed .So thats life for me ,when one string gets sorted the other gets tangled.Chalo even after all this i was quite happy abt how things were going but then again as something has to go bad i got to know that my next date of joining has been postponed till october and thats too too late .All i am feeling is regrets and sadness .Why cudnt things go the way i think ?
Even my family is also feeling bad abt this and me feeling much worse to see them like this .

So here i am thinking that might be there is something better in this for me :-(

Isnt this true .......

2005-07-15T11:31:00.000+05:30

I cannot give you the formula for success, but I can give you the formula for failure--which is:
Try to please everybody.

Herbert Bayard Swope

my friends !!!!

2005-07-11T14:28:00.000+05:30

My friends .......

We r a circle of 5 guys R,A,H,G and me(cant disclose the names cause they might be reading this) .We have been together since schooldays and our friendship has survived the good and the bads . These r the guy who no matter how i might be feeling have the capability to make me feel good (not that they will listen to my problems and give me
sympathy ).Plzzz they r the last guys with whom ill talk serious stuff .

So in school days we were all bonded together by the fact that we were one of the best cricketerts in the class . And still this love for crciket survives and we usually play every sunday at H's(a lot to come abt this guy) place ....

We all were quite decent in our reults during our school days . But H was quite bad in maths .Every time he used to tell us that he got 60/100 in maths but it was only
a matter of time till we used to know that there was a mild confuion(with the nos reversing)and that the original nos were 6/100....Anyway the guy had a grt aptitude and still has :-)

Then G(qualifications B pool and pursuing M pool ) .This was the guy who had a vcr at his place at that time .And we did watcha lot of educational stuff during 10th holidays at his place ..

Anyways we all got through 10th with decent marks and me ,R and A took non med and shifted to G.N.P.S and H remained in our old school "sacred heart boys convent" and opted for commerse and G went to some other school and he too opted for commerse .

So this was the first time that these guys shifted school or were asked to leave schools .Me , R and A had real fun in our new school with our new interest "table tennis" . They even used to bunk classes. Gradually days came when they used to come
to school but just to say hi and then used to go to either play pool or go to some
theater to watch some third grade 'A' movie.

And if u think that during this time 'H ' was not in touch u guys r highly mistaken.
He was a true friend of urs and used to go to non med tutions with us .Though the lectures were a tough part on him but the girls were fine . And yes if u think what abt the tution fees , he didnt give any .He did study with us for 6 months and manged to go without giving a single fees .He is really street smart.

Chalo now results for +1 got out .A and R got failed and were asked to leave the school .Moreover G also got failed in commerse in his own school and was also asked to leave . It was during this stressful period that these guys got to know the taste of studying in diff schools making new friends ....SO now all these got admission in some other school and now all three took commerse .

They really had fun and since then they have become a firm beleiver of "whatever happens , happens for good " and that "variety is the spice of life".
And beleive what these 3 guys were the toppers when +2 results came out .

I even remember a visit with 'A' to his school .He was treated really great with the principal coming and meeting him specially and giving him his certificate .

After this i got in eng , 'H' and 'R' got admissions in B com . "A'" went to delhi for his B com and 'G' was sitting at home .Actually his family was planning to send him to Newzeland .But he cudnt go for some reason till one year . So during this time he did B pool (bachelors in pool ).Nowdays he is back and is doing M pool (masters in
pool).

Present state
'A' - went to chennai for his mba

'R' - planning to go to UK but waiting for his passport he has been waiting since 1 year and he just called me today and said that he is planning to apply again.

'H' - He is still fighting to know what carrier should he opt for.Actually last year he started preparing for IAS but then realised doing mba from BOMbay was a cool option so did prepare for that but couldnt get through . But now he says that he is planning to give Cat and is aiming for much wider range of colleges .In the meanwhile there have been some more things which he has been seriously considering like IPS , going abroad etc toname a few . We usually laugh that his visiting card would have all the qualifications known ..

Me - done with btech waiting for joining .

I think this is what i can think of them at this moment .Hope so 'H' gets his line
and please any new career advise is welcome cause he is really getting short of options

bye .....

memories

2005-07-04T21:47:00.000+05:30

Its been a long time since i have updated this blog the reason being that i was busy with my final semester project submissions and viva ... Anyway so much has been happening in my life from the past 2-3 days that i rarely got time to think abt my life .My viva was supposed to be on saturday and our group decided to meet on friday ... So party was on the cards and we had great fun as it was supposed to be our farewell .....Anyway the next day viva went good and now this time a lot many guys decided to get along with us and plan what we again call as farewell party (we have been celebrating our farewell party since last year).So its everytime like "common have a drink today since this is the last time we r meeting "......and this goes on and on everytime we meet..

So u must be wondering by now y the title memories? ..Its because its the only thing that ihave right now ...Actually It was during my viva that i got my joining date.I have to report in Chennai on 15th..... and ill be leaving by 11th from here.. So that leaves a time of just 7 days .And believe me 7 days r way too short when nothing of this sort is planned before ..

In a matter of 7 days ill be leaving my place , my family and my friends who i am not even sure will be here the next time ill come to my place as someone is planning to go to uk and other to bombay .........

Yesterday when i was coming back in train all my past life flashed in front of my eyes .Everything from my school days to my days at college .Actually all this while i have been planning that one month before joining ill start organising my life as now it is quite unorganised (waking at 12 eating something then talking on phone and sit on net and then again feel sleepy at 4.30 ).

But now it doesnt feel like i have got time to organise myself ...
So now i am just thinking to plan the rest of my days here ....cause i have lots and lots to do including one day trip to my univ to get my provisional degree ...so in all 6 days ..i guess i should stop typing now and maybe plan to go to my friends place ..

Will be writing more about my memories in these 6 days ...

Bye ....

Blogging

2005-06-19T21:29:00.000+05:30

Blogging ! The word that i came to know just a few months back during my training in a software industry . Never knew i was going to come across such a great thing .

Today i was sitting and wondering how have blogs affected my life and it has in a great way . I see myself analysing all the things as if i want to write abt them . Try to comprehend all my life experiences .So basically it has enabled me to introspect abt my life . Moreover it has helped me to come to know that my life after all is not so complexed as my title says . I have come to realise that i am not the only one who is postponing things and many such things which i thought no one does . So blogging enables people to put thier emotions on a web page which people like me wud never had put in front . Moreover it is such a great thing to read abt some truly amazing people .Knowing more abt there lives .

All in all a great experience and me really greatful to my friend who introduced me into this blogworld .....

speaking through eyes

2005-06-16T01:06:00.000+05:30

Today i went for the movie Parineeta.The movie was pretty good but the best thing in the movie was the girl Vidya Balan.Beleive me she has got the most stunning eyes that i have seen for quite some time.When i was watching the movie i was only thinking that whether the girl that will come in my life will have such beautiful eyes and whether she'll also communicate through her eyes .Anyway thats only a hope.chalo bye hope so u people also enjoy the movie

Light ....

2005-06-15T17:01:00.000+05:30

These days i have started to realise
the importance of light as it .. is
rarely here .had just been 4 hrs
today .It came right now so thought
of posting something .And here i am .
Nothing more to say light gone again
will post later .......

emptiness!!!!!

2005-06-11T21:09:00.000+05:30

hmm..
Emptiness !what shud i say abt this word.Now days
it seems to be filling my life.

There r some days in life when u think abt urself
and decide that u need to get serious with it .
There's something thats always bothering u ,something
that tells u that u havnt worked that hard .Now thats the
thing that often stops u from enjoying the small pieces of succeess that comes
ur way .I dont know whether i am making sense or not but anyway
theres no better option ......And i am exactly in this frame of mind .

Since i appeared for my iit exams i always knew that i wanted to get into
one .I always had the desire but dont know y i wasnt able to put the
required effort to fulfill my dreams .Times have gone by and though
i think i havnt fared bad in my carreer there's hell lot of more that i
know i can get and that i must get .

so hope so i get out of this feeling and get on with some activity
in life .....cause thats the only way i feel i can achieve what i want ........

a new beginning

2005-06-04T02:49:00.000+05:30

Hi this is my first post.
Just saw everyone blogging these days , so thought of
giving it a shot myself .
anyway will post abt my life soon and please any advise abt
blogging is welcome